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newly single at 40ish and living it up? on the Costa

Well this my first blog and i suppose i thought it would be good place to write down how i am feeling about my new experiences i have found myself having.

sad news
04 January 2013 @ 19:10

 i know it has been a wee while, after a very busy christmas indeed and unable to blog from my kindle fire , It is harder to write than i thought it would be but on new years day my mother sadly past away and it was a shock as it was a massive heart attack and now i have started to write it seems quite theraputic to write it down, as she was in spain we had to make decisions far quicker than you would if you prepared for it but as it turns out really, it is better as you get all the practical stuff done and get to lay her to rest and all in a few days , which leaves you feeling quite weird and as if it is unreal , however it is really better than you have to wait around for weeks , left in limbo and feeling so hollow, and ringing all the insurances, pensions banks etc seems far less daunting and it is like you are just speaking about a name and not my beloved mother. You really never really know how you feel when you lose a parent, i saw other people and they all looked different after they lose a parent and its true, you do feel slightly different, not sure how but you do, like i decided i should tell people how i felt about them , instead of keeping it to myself, all good ones , cause i found it easy to tell someone how i felt when i disliked them but if i liked them , i think i did not tell them enough but i have now,

So now i have to live and not just whinge ,

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eggcup said:
04 January 2013 @ 20:24

Sorry to hear about your sad news Helen. It must have been a big shock. I hope things start to settle for you soon. All the best. Eggie.

Charlie said:
04 January 2013 @ 20:59

So sorry to hear of your loss, Helen...Both of my parents passed away several years ago, and I didn't know how I'd get over it, but I did.
When they say "time heals", you don't believe it at the time, but it really does get better; it just takes awhile.
Best wishes for a healing New Year,

Tamara said:
04 January 2013 @ 21:19

So sorry Helen, how awful that it was so sudden and you perhaps didn't get to say everything you wanted to say. I'm sure she knew she was very much loved.

Every girl needs her mum. My mum died on June 4th so this was my first ever Christmas without her. She's left a huge hole in my life as I'm sure your mum has left in yours. Thinking of you xx

Louise said:
04 January 2013 @ 21:47

So sorry to hear of your loss Helen. That must have been so hard when it was unexpected like that. Although theres never a good time to lose a loved one, it must be especially hard at Christmas. Hope you have lots of support, you certainly have some of us here on the Eye of Spain thinking of you. Hope all goes well and if writing stuff down helps then carry on and we'll keep reading and supporting. xx

Gerald said:
04 January 2013 @ 22:17

So sad Helen just 4 days ago, your nerves & emotions must be a wreck, but dear keep writing if it helps & as Louise says we'll be hear to read & support all we can.

helenr said:
08 January 2013 @ 14:46

thankyou, all for your kind words, it really does help to write it down how you are feeling

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