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Mixed feelings about returning to Spain
08 August 2013 @ 10:30

After four months in the UK, away from my spiritual and actual home, you'd think I'd be champing at the bit now the ferry is booked for Monday, 12th August. We sail from Plymouth to Roscoff, so we should be back in Algorfa some time on Thursday afternoon.

As the day approaches, I find myself more and more reluctant to pack up our caravan in Devon and head back. A big part of the problem is that I don't want to put water between myself and my daughter. She's made a miraculous recovery from her stroke - she's camping with friends as we speak - but I very nearly lost her, and I don't want to leave her, even though she'll probably be glad to see the back of me. She's told friends that I'm fussing over her too much - and I am - so it will probably do her good to get her independence back again.

That's not all of it, though. Everyone has been so good to us during this difficult time, and it's going to be hard to say goodbye to those friends who have cooked meals for us, plied us with drink, organised outings and generally tried to make life as enjoyable as possible under the circumstances.

And of course, the weather here has been fantastic. This time last year, we experienced four dry days during a five week visit in June and July, but this year it's been shorts and suncream all the way, so it feels more like home.

I'm sure once I board the ferry I'll be really looking forward to seeing our apartment - and our friends who have kept the garden watered and the tropical fish fed. However, at the moment, my feelings about my return to Spain are very mixed indeed. Who's a silly Sandra, then?

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Pamela said:
10 August 2013 @ 10:02

Sandra I am so pleased that your daughter had made such a good recovery and you can now return. We recently went to the UK for a week to meet our new great granddaughter we had a lovely time with the whole family. It is difficult to leave but our thoughts are that we feel we are giving our daughter and the family the freedom to live their own lives and not have to worry about us if that is any help!! Do so enjoy your outlook and reading your blogs

Pamela said:
10 August 2013 @ 10:03

p.s. Also they have a lovely place for a holiday :)

Louise said:
10 August 2013 @ 10:29

Hi Sandra, I think I can understand how you're feeling and its got to be 100% normal. We've yet to leave for the first time but I know that although most of me will be so happy, a part of me will be incredibly sad as not only will I be leaving my children but my grandaughter who I've had a close bond with since her birth two years ago. I was the first to hold her after she was born by C-section and her dad was too scared to go to the theatre and I've seen her several times a week ever since! A grandson is presently cooking and its doubtful that I'll be able to be there for his birth as you can never plan these things and I feel like I'll be letting my daughter down by not being able to support her. I have known all this since we started planning our move over 3 years ago but it will still be hard. Once you get back to your home in Spain and see your friends you'll get back into your routines of Spanish life and while you'll never forget what happened to your daughter you'll be making more contact with her for a long while until you can feel you can release again the independant daughter you had before. For your daughter, she was so lucky and I'm sure she will have made changes in her life so that she doesn't suffer another stroke and of course I'm sure the hospital will be looking out for her. :)

Margaret said:
19 August 2013 @ 17:10

Pamela you are deluded

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