The view from the back

 Well after all the fuss I got a phone call from the briefs junior who in a very timid little voice said " we've just exchanged contracts and the sale is legally binding and transfer will take place at 2 pm on Monday " I replied " ok thanks for calling " and that was that , the rubber stamp on the last 28 yrs . How do I feel ? , ? , ? I'm looking at the curser and ? . This journey started in fear - Redundancy - that soon turned to excitement as it became clear that the package was good and We could manage to wrap up our affairs sell up and bring on our plan to move to the bedar area of Almeria, then came the task of doing a few jobs around the house as the lovely wife says we have to be the best and dress the house and decorate to neutralise you know ? So we removed my large pond added decking and Astra turf fitted new internal doors and decorated half the house took some spanish lessons all the while my dad was seriously ill and he lovely wife was nominated driver for his partner who can't drive , 12 weeks in hospital and a year of home visits and he's just back to normal. All this and the house on the market and clearing stuff , eBay became a business , couriers became friends , week after week buff polish dress up dress down views in viewers out even the Russians came for a look and we thought that was hassle but actually selling Sh1t ,  selling's worse ! The uncertainty , the cost then the rush to be ready and now as we're just about there the emptiness of our home , the bare bones of it . The garden has blossomed as planned , dahlias and Lilly's have all come good the pansy s that suffered so much have only just said goodbye and died rather fitting really. So how do we feel ? Tied , sorry how do I feel  ? "empty " " reflective " . Our journey has reached the point like on TV , home or away ? Where the friends and relatives pop in to say how much they will miss you and say how lucky or brave , brave ? I hope I don't need to be brave been brave enough since sept 2011 when the news broke.